The Same Sad Song

Tell me I'm okay

While I write the same thing

Tell me I'll be just fine

Even when it feels

Like I'm burning alive

It's been a long road

To get where I am at

But sometimes it seems

Like I've made it nowhere

Still searching 

For the high ground

As I meltdown 

There's just certain times

I wish I could skip

Are we still on the same page

Little nightmare? 

Are we still singing 

The same tune

To this lullaby? 

Are we gonna say goodnight

Or fall apart? 

While we still fight this war

We keep losing our peace

And we say

Come tomorrow 

I'll pack these bags

And quit this shit

There's no faking it

Tomorrow never comes

And we're still here

Singing the same sad song

©2021 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal

Burning in the night (Raise A Glass)

Raise a glass

And toast to the night

Here's to the past

And may our futures 

Burn as bright

As the bridges 

I'm burning tonight

Won't look back 

Except to learn

From my past

Won't look back

Only make sure

The fires last

And if you come along

If you're up for the ride

We'll never look back

Keep moving fast

I'm burning bridges

To say goodbye 

I'm moving mountains

Just to survive

No longer waiting

I'm searching for hope

Wanting for peace 

And when it comes down

I'll know who I am

What happened 

To our peace of mind

Chasing dreams

Till the break of dawn

Crashing through time

Never caring

What tomorrow would bring

Cause today was the only thing

That mattered to us

What happened to our energy

That built us so high

Let's start that fire again

Raise a glass

And toast to the night

Here's to the past

And may our futures 

Burn as bright

As the bridges 

I'm burning tonight

Won't look back 

Except to learn

From my past

Won't look back

Only make sure

The fires last

Raise a glass

And pour it out

Like kerosene 

Watch it burn 

To make something new

I'm burning bridges in the night

I'm burning bridges

To say goodbye 

I'm moving mountains

Just to survive

No longer waiting

I'm searching for hope

Wanting for peace 

And when it comes down

I'll know who I am

©2021 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal

Waiting For Adventure To Call My Name

 Let's run away

Take a trip anywhere 

It doesn't have to be far

Just get me away from here

At a breaking point

Far from any sense

Of a safe return 

Looking for adventure 

I'll go anywhere

If we could just

Run away

Facing the reality

That expectation 

Is a figment of

My imagination 

But my impression 

Will never change

A delusional outcome

Is the house I made

I'll dig my grave

And bury it all the same

I wanna jump in a car 

Going anywhere

Stare down the road

Acting like I don't care

I'm just looking to disappear 

Find adventure 

And hope it's pure

I wanna jump in car

And run away from here

Show me what this life could be

Teach me the ways of happiness 

It's always felt like a dream

A beautiful disaster 

Barley keeping us alive

Just staying in one place

Feels like a sin against 

Everything we're meant to be 

And if it breaks down

I'll keep my feet

On the ground

Slowly spinning

Till I find my way back home

©2021 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal

Fact Or Fiction (Take The Hint)

Sex sells

But nothing profits

Like a war

Drugs keep 

People happy at bay

While they hide

Their shade

Behind all the lies

And hypocrisy 

Burning everyone alive

Take the hint

No one seems to care

About you

Or your livelihood 

It's old news

But you're still shook

At the idea

That your overlords

Deceived your ignorance 

Sold you out

For a profit

From your blissfulness 

Fact or fiction 

You'll never stop

Falling for it

Broken hearted

Sending thoughts

And prayers

It doesn't matter

Your actions 

Prove it evermore

It's all about the money

Cause nothing speaks louder

Than how it benefits "me"

We're going insane

Buying the bullshit

That we're fed

For crying out loud

It's such a pain

Breaking down

The lies to everyone around

Too blind to see

Too ignorant to care

Maybe we're all doomed

Maybe we were 

Never meant to be

Never worth it

But well deserved 

Misery loves company

But we're all just

Swimming in grief

The cesspool

We created

Claiming to clean

All of humanity 

While we continue 

Losing it all

Tell me 

How are we still breathing 

How are we still moving

How are we still alive

With the toxic ways

We still breed

Misery loves company

And corporate greed

We've lost everything

That it means

To be human

Nothing left

Will be the death of us

©2021 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal

At War

 I'm at war in this place

I can't escape

I can barely breathe, think, or even scream

And you think you've won

But I've barely begun

This is where I become....

The monster 

The beast inside this living hell

The nightmare

Out of this mind

Where all the demons come to play

I'll make it out

Screaming louder and louder

I'll make it out

I'll make it out!

Everybody watching now

All eyes on me these days

Nothing short of misery

A panic attack

To keep me up

Everyone watching me

Making bets on how far I'll go

While I'm still clawing out

Of this grave I made

And you think you've won

But I've barely begun

This is where I become...

I'll stand there

I'll fight you

I'll break everything

You have left

I'll show you

That I don't need you

Just to bring 

All my sins to light

And you think you've won

But I've barely begun

This is where I become...

Break me!

I'm not feeling okay

Shake me!

It's like I'm stuck in misery

Can't breathe!

I just need some space and oxygen

Help me!

I can't save myself!

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Conversations With God

 Broken and lost in misery

Not depressed, not happy

But somewhere in between 

Feeling hopeless

Like another lost cause

Fighting for everything

Fighting to be okay

I asked God

Does this ever get better

Does it get easier 

Along the way

He said 

I'm sorry it only gets worse

It only gets harder from here

But I'll build you up

And make you stronger 

Than you ever thought possible

I'll make sure 

You'll make out 

And be just fine

Tell me I'm okay

Tell me this is worth it 

Every fucking mistake

Every second spent in misery

Feels like I'm dying slowly

Losing my breath

My motivation for anything

It was never meant to be easy

Never thought I could hurt so much

You tell me to hang on

But are You even there

So much pain 

Where blissful peace should exist

Tell me God

When will this numbness disappear 

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Where Are You?

 I dont hear your voice anymore

Tell me where'd you go

You left me alone in the dark

Wondering hopelessly

Waiting for something more

Can you see me

Are you even listening

Did you leave me

Cause I can't feel you anywhere

Losing touch with reality

They're speaking to me

It doesn't seem right

Alone in the dark

And it's haunting

Alone in the night

It's never ending

Alone in this head

It won't shut up

Just looking for a way out

Searching for solutions

To all of these questions 

The ghosts come out to play

Searching for the lost 

Seeking out the dammed 

Waiting for war

Waiting for an ending

To come to sight

Are you listening

To the slient screams

To the bated breaths

Of the jaded hearts

Can you see me

Cause I can't hear you 

Did you leave

Cause I can't feel you

Are you listening 

©2021 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal

See The World (Come Alive)

 I wanna see the world

Runaway from this bullshit

I wanna see the world

Living under the night sky

I wanna see the world

Like I've never seen it before

Give me adventure 

Some peace of mind

Fuck this reality 

It's no friend of mine

I wanna runaway 

See the world come alive

The city lights scream

As we fly high tonight

Don't look back

No! Don't look down

I know this won't last

Feeling of bliss

Nothing but ignorance

Better than emptiness 

I never wanna wake up

Blank skies

And fake memories

These lies

Pouring over me

We fight hard

But no love found

We're falling now

Wishing I could live here forever

Blissful peace

Full of ignorance 

Nothing but a dream

Of paradise

It doesn't exist

©2021 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal

10 Years

 Lost here in the moment

Never looking back

Everything seems frozen

Still so much has passed

It seems just like yesterday

Another cliché 

But I'm still looking for answers

To every question left

In this empty space

I thought this feeling

Would disapate 

So much time

Between you and I

Stories left to never hear

Another word

Won't be said

With that cigarette 

Melting in your hand

That empty look

Lost deep in thought

Wondering where you went

Left this emptiness 

That a healing hand

Could never touch

10 years here and gone

10 years in the making

10 years seems like nothing

When everything is breaking

10 years here and gone

©2021 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal

Forget Me (Save Me Someday)

 Forget me

Like everyone has

Watch me dissappear 

Into the middle of nowhere

Let it fade away

Into the ashes

As the whole world

Moves away

On to better things

The memories were great 

But they feel so fake

I dont need your

Sympathy 

It's not worth

The time I seek

Oh woe is me

In this reality 

Melancholy 

And jaded

Bittersweet 

Melody

Sing me to sleep

I need to believe

That this is just a dream

A nightmare

Making my head spin

Send me off 

To distant lands

Just sing me to sleep

Make me feel okay

Make me feel like

I'm not just a fucking mistake

Cause I try everyday

To be all that I can

But this fake happiness 

Takes a toll on all of me

Make this go away

Make me feel okay

Save me someday

©2021 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal

Overstayed

(v1)

I can’t hear
A fucking thing that you say
It’s all noise, anyway
It feels like I’m all out of faith
And sympathy
Everything it sounds the same
Dying just to feel like we’re alive
It’s a shame 
That I don’t seem to care at all

(c)
We’ve overstayed our welcome
It doesn’t feel right
But what’s to change
When everything just stays the same
It’s a war they say
On the hate and ignorance
Everything that’s been fed to us
Bred into existence 

(v2)
Tell me how to feel
What to do
What to say
Tell me how to conform
To throw it all away
Cause I can’t seem
To put into words
What this feeling is
It’s all the same

(b)
Don’t pray for me
It’s not what I need
Our blinding rage
This hate that I see
It’s a fate
Another grave
We’ve dug for ourselves

©2021 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal

Take Me Back

 Take me back to

19 nintey-nine

Where we were 

Flying high

Before these scars

Could leave us dry

Not worry in the world

Just waiting to see

If today would be the day

The power rangers

Met their fate

Or switch it up

And bring down

All of this hate

Not so broken

Back in day

Now I'm singing songs

Like Sandy Cheeks

I just wanna go home

And lay down low

Feeling invisible 

Like Danny Phantom

I'm going ghost 

So I can ride this coast

A little bit longer

Getting back to the future

And find my hope

Fast forward 

To 2000 and three

When I was wishing

I could be all grown up

To face my fears

Like the titans

And be more

Than these years

That are holding me back

But I need to stop

Living in the past

Always wanna go beyond

Skipping all the steps

Rewriting this story

Just to get to the good part

A brighter future

Like the Jetsons 

But I'm falling flat

Like Samurai Jack

I just wanna go back

To start over again

Live without regrets

Do something better

Than fry did

Take me back 

To the time I learned

To live in the moment

So I never forget 

To be me, to be free

To be my own invader

Of these dreams

©2021 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal

Waiting For The Sun

 It's gonna be

A long drive tonight

Waiting for

The sun to arrive

Looking for away out

Without another breakdown 

Easier said than done

Waiting for the sun

The city lights

Scream out to me

The starry sky

Breathes air to see

Telling stories 

Of how we fight

Loosing our minds

Hanging on to hope

That doesn't seem real

To be greater than we are

I'll fight till the sun comes 

Just to feel happy 

Staring at the twilight sky

Dreaming of better days

Chasing the sun

Waiting for its return

To wipe this nightmare away

Shoot the devil

In the rear view 

And turn darkness to day

I'm waiting for the sun

Let me sleep

Be alone in this head

Dream of the day

That this all ends

The nightmare disappears

With the devil in this ear

And waiting for the sun

Seems like a lifetime ago

©2021 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal

An Epic Tale Of A Pessimistic Hero And A Villain In Disguise

I wanna write an epic tale

About how I saved a princess

Like a fairytale 

That doesn't exist

About as real as our dreams

Of distant lands

Saving us from our own 

Lack of self-esteem 

I was never much of a hero

But when did I become

Such a fucking pessimist

Living life like the villain 

Never one for the spot light

No fame or glory

A lack of sympathy 

At a breaking point

This was never my story

Rewriting everything

Hoping for something better

Hold it to the fire

Waiting to see

If it melts away

This script has me on the edge

Searching for an escape

Nothing in plain sight

So we'll build it in to the scribble

This villain will never see the light of day

Broken faith

Blind hypocrisy 

Killing the snake

Cutting off the airways

To make a cleaner way

To getaway 

From the lies we're told

The fairytales 

We wrote so bold

I'll write an epic tale

Of a hero so small

A villain in disguise 

That kidnaps the princess

Runs away to distant lands

Hidden away 

Behind our dreams

Of a busted reality

A story never told

Written so bold

©2021 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal

Break Me Down

 (C)

Don't break me down

Don't make me feel again

This shits unreal

Its fucking with my head again

These voices cry

These monsters scream

Its killing me

Don't know what to say

Don't know how to act

Just don't break me down

(V1)

These hours are

Passing by

These days 

Feel like hell

Every moment

Brings another fail

Can't tell whats real

Or what to believe 

They're fucking us up

With their own prerogative 

(V2)

But you know

The days are burning

So it seems

Like the world is going insane

Don't know what to do

They say throw it away

And hope for the best

But this faith is dying

Bleeding out

On the sidelines

(B)

We've created a place 

Between truth and overrated

We're living behind glass walls

Hoping they never shatter

Throwing stones by day

Screaming every night

Days of false hope and fake news

Ruling over us

I'm over it

©2021 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal

Fuck Tomorrow

 Stuck in a loop

A metronome 

A fucking tragedy 

The whole world

Is burning to the ground

What a mess

That would be

Watching it go up in flames

I don't care

I'm living for this shit to end

Don't know how much more

I can bare

Forget this day

This moment

Right now

It doesn't matter

Fuck tomorrow 

I wanna have some fun

I'm tired of playing 

By the rules

I'm tired of running

And getting nowhere

It doesn't seem fair

Fuck tomorrow 

I just wanna have some fun

Lately it feels like

I'm writing the same shit

It doesn't seem right

But it's all I have left

Tired of standing back

Waiting for some sort of

Qualifications 

Anything to save me

It's oversimplification 

But the math never adds up

I'm screaming

Cause this silence 

Is deafening

This stillness

Isn't what it's cracked up to be

It's ridiculous 

But it's all I can see

Waiting

Just waiting

©2021 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal

(Can't) Be Like You

 Can't break

Everything I am

Can't fake

Anything around

It's all real

No shame 

No hate

No facade

I'm not fucking around 

With anyone

That doesn't understand 

I'll throw it in your face

These days

It feels like

Everyone's playing a game

It's okay

We're all going insane 

Pretending the old ways

Still work the same as yesterday 

So I'm 

Never looking back 

Never giving up

Never thinking twice

About where I'm going 

Forget about the past 

Forget about the pain

Forget about never knowing 

What the future holds

It never mattered much

I don't wanna be like you

Stuck in misery

At a dead end since 23

I don't wanna be like you

Picking on everyone

Acting like my shit don't stink 

I don't wanna be like you 

Blaming the world

For all of my mistakes 

I'll never be like you

I refuse to be as pathetic 

I won't be like you

©2021 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal

Monsters Never Die

 Living on the edge 

I let you in my head

You left it a mess

Ashes on the ground

Wishing I was wasted

Instead of wasting time

Taught me how to fake it

I memorized it

I'm never going down

Without a fight

Leave me broke and bruised 

I'll show you spite 

Monsters never die

We just learn 

How to survive 

So bring on the war

I live for the panic

Make up your mind

Cause I want more

Keep driving me forward

I dont want to stop

Show me the fear

The paranoia 

Cause monsters never die

We just survive

Never for a moment

Did I ever wish this 

Got me screaming

Bloody murder

Waiting for an answer

Is this rebellion 

Or another reason

To dissappear 

Listen to this sound

All this frustration

Bringing me down

Starting fires

For the noise

Need to drown this out

In the smoke 

In the lies

Deception of the crime

You left a mess in this head

Ashes everywhere 

©2021 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal

Still Choking On Yesterday

 Heavy's the heart

Looking for some peace

Living under the stars

Wanting to make history

 

I lost sight of these big dreams

Been living for everyone else

But myself

Keeping stuck in misery

Nothing make sense

It's alright

I'll be fine

Finding my own way

My way out of this hell

 

I don’t have time

To live the past

I don’t have time

Looking for the right cast

Gotta keep this head on straight

Forget about the rest

No time for regrets

I've got big dreams

Gotta live my best

And fly like a shooting star

I'm not done yet

 

Roaming the streets

Looking at yesterday

Living life on a stage

Stuck in this disarray

Broken pieces everywhere

A torn-up puzzle

Sitting in front of me

Where do we go

From here

 

Lately it feels like

I'm writing the same shit

It doesn't seem right

But it's all I have left

Tired of standing back

So I keep telling myself

Never look back

You'll get farther than you are

Don't slow down

Don't think twice

Keep moving on

You'll never know unless you try

Fly like a shooting star

©2021 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal