Waiting For Adventure To Call My Name

 Let's run away

Take a trip anywhere 

It doesn't have to be far

Just get me away from here

At a breaking point

Far from any sense

Of a safe return 

Looking for adventure 

I'll go anywhere

If we could just

Run away

Facing the reality

That expectation 

Is a figment of

My imagination 

But my impression 

Will never change

A delusional outcome

Is the house I made

I'll dig my grave

And bury it all the same

I wanna jump in a car 

Going anywhere

Stare down the road

Acting like I don't care

I'm just looking to disappear 

Find adventure 

And hope it's pure

I wanna jump in car

And run away from here

Show me what this life could be

Teach me the ways of happiness 

It's always felt like a dream

A beautiful disaster 

Barley keeping us alive

Just staying in one place

Feels like a sin against 

Everything we're meant to be 

And if it breaks down

I'll keep my feet

On the ground

Slowly spinning

Till I find my way back home

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Fact Or Fiction (Take The Hint)

Sex sells

But nothing profits

Like a war

Drugs keep 

People happy at bay

While they hide

Their shade

Behind all the lies

And hypocrisy 

Burning everyone alive

Take the hint

No one seems to care

About you

Or your livelihood 

It's old news

But you're still shook

At the idea

That your overlords

Deceived your ignorance 

Sold you out

For a profit

From your blissfulness 

Fact or fiction 

You'll never stop

Falling for it

Broken hearted

Sending thoughts

And prayers

It doesn't matter

Your actions 

Prove it evermore

It's all about the money

Cause nothing speaks louder

Than how it benefits "me"

We're going insane

Buying the bullshit

That we're fed

For crying out loud

It's such a pain

Breaking down

The lies to everyone around

Too blind to see

Too ignorant to care

Maybe we're all doomed

Maybe we were 

Never meant to be

Never worth it

But well deserved 

Misery loves company

But we're all just

Swimming in grief

The cesspool

We created

Claiming to clean

All of humanity 

While we continue 

Losing it all

Tell me 

How are we still breathing 

How are we still moving

How are we still alive

With the toxic ways

We still breed

Misery loves company

And corporate greed

We've lost everything

That it means

To be human

Nothing left

Will be the death of us

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At War

 I'm at war in this place

I can't escape

I can barely breathe, think, or even scream

And you think you've won

But I've barely begun

This is where I become....

The monster 

The beast inside this living hell

The nightmare

Out of this mind

Where all the demons come to play

I'll make it out

Screaming louder and louder

I'll make it out

I'll make it out!

Everybody watching now

All eyes on me these days

Nothing short of misery

A panic attack

To keep me up

Everyone watching me

Making bets on how far I'll go

While I'm still clawing out

Of this grave I made

And you think you've won

But I've barely begun

This is where I become...

I'll stand there

I'll fight you

I'll break everything

You have left

I'll show you

That I don't need you

Just to bring 

All my sins to light

And you think you've won

But I've barely begun

This is where I become...

Break me!

I'm not feeling okay

Shake me!

It's like I'm stuck in misery

Can't breathe!

I just need some space and oxygen

Help me!

I can't save myself!

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Conversations With God

 Broken and lost in misery

Not depressed, not happy

But somewhere in between 

Feeling hopeless

Like another lost cause

Fighting for everything

Fighting to be okay

I asked God

Does this ever get better

Does it get easier 

Along the way

He said 

I'm sorry it only gets worse

It only gets harder from here

But I'll build you up

And make you stronger 

Than you ever thought possible

I'll make sure 

You'll make out 

And be just fine

Tell me I'm okay

Tell me this is worth it 

Every fucking mistake

Every second spent in misery

Feels like I'm dying slowly

Losing my breath

My motivation for anything

It was never meant to be easy

Never thought I could hurt so much

You tell me to hang on

But are You even there

So much pain 

Where blissful peace should exist

Tell me God

When will this numbness disappear 

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Where Are You?

 I dont hear your voice anymore

Tell me where'd you go

You left me alone in the dark

Wondering hopelessly

Waiting for something more

Can you see me

Are you even listening

Did you leave me

Cause I can't feel you anywhere

Losing touch with reality

They're speaking to me

It doesn't seem right

Alone in the dark

And it's haunting

Alone in the night

It's never ending

Alone in this head

It won't shut up

Just looking for a way out

Searching for solutions

To all of these questions 

The ghosts come out to play

Searching for the lost 

Seeking out the dammed 

Waiting for war

Waiting for an ending

To come to sight

Are you listening

To the slient screams

To the bated breaths

Of the jaded hearts

Can you see me

Cause I can't hear you 

Did you leave

Cause I can't feel you

Are you listening 

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See The World (Come Alive)

 I wanna see the world

Runaway from this bullshit

I wanna see the world

Living under the night sky

I wanna see the world

Like I've never seen it before

Give me adventure 

Some peace of mind

Fuck this reality 

It's no friend of mine

I wanna runaway 

See the world come alive

The city lights scream

As we fly high tonight

Don't look back

No! Don't look down

I know this won't last

Feeling of bliss

Nothing but ignorance

Better than emptiness 

I never wanna wake up

Blank skies

And fake memories

These lies

Pouring over me

We fight hard

But no love found

We're falling now

Wishing I could live here forever

Blissful peace

Full of ignorance 

Nothing but a dream

Of paradise

It doesn't exist

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10 Years

 Lost here in the moment

Never looking back

Everything seems frozen

Still so much has passed

It seems just like yesterday

Another cliché 

But I'm still looking for answers

To every question left

In this empty space

I thought this feeling

Would disapate 

So much time

Between you and I

Stories left to never hear

Another word

Won't be said

With that cigarette 

Melting in your hand

That empty look

Lost deep in thought

Wondering where you went

Left this emptiness 

That a healing hand

Could never touch

10 years here and gone

10 years in the making

10 years seems like nothing

When everything is breaking

10 years here and gone

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Forget Me (Save Me Someday)

 Forget me

Like everyone has

Watch me dissappear 

Into the middle of nowhere

Let it fade away

Into the ashes

As the whole world

Moves away

On to better things

The memories were great 

But they feel so fake

I dont need your

Sympathy 

It's not worth

The time I seek

Oh woe is me

In this reality 

Melancholy 

And jaded

Bittersweet 

Melody

Sing me to sleep

I need to believe

That this is just a dream

A nightmare

Making my head spin

Send me off 

To distant lands

Just sing me to sleep

Make me feel okay

Make me feel like

I'm not just a fucking mistake

Cause I try everyday

To be all that I can

But this fake happiness 

Takes a toll on all of me

Make this go away

Make me feel okay

Save me someday

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Overstayed

(v1)

I can’t hear
A fucking thing that you say
It’s all noise, anyway
It feels like I’m all out of faith
And sympathy
Everything it sounds the same
Dying just to feel like we’re alive
It’s a shame 
That I don’t seem to care at all

(c)
We’ve overstayed our welcome
It doesn’t feel right
But what’s to change
When everything just stays the same
It’s a war they say
On the hate and ignorance
Everything that’s been fed to us
Bred into existence 

(v2)
Tell me how to feel
What to do
What to say
Tell me how to conform
To throw it all away
Cause I can’t seem
To put into words
What this feeling is
It’s all the same

(b)
Don’t pray for me
It’s not what I need
Our blinding rage
This hate that I see
It’s a fate
Another grave
We’ve dug for ourselves

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Take Me Back

 Take me back to

19 nintey-nine

Where we were 

Flying high

Before these scars

Could leave us dry

Not worry in the world

Just waiting to see

If today would be the day

The power rangers

Met their fate

Or switch it up

And bring down

All of this hate

Not so broken

Back in day

Now I'm singing songs

Like Sandy Cheeks

I just wanna go home

And lay down low

Feeling invisible 

Like Danny Phantom

I'm going ghost 

So I can ride this coast

A little bit longer

Getting back to the future

And find my hope

Fast forward 

To 2000 and three

When I was wishing

I could be all grown up

To face my fears

Like the titans

And be more

Than these years

That are holding me back

But I need to stop

Living in the past

Always wanna go beyond

Skipping all the steps

Rewriting this story

Just to get to the good part

A brighter future

Like the Jetsons 

But I'm falling flat

Like Samurai Jack

I just wanna go back

To start over again

Live without regrets

Do something better

Than fry did

Take me back 

To the time I learned

To live in the moment

So I never forget 

To be me, to be free

To be my own invader

Of these dreams

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