SkreamKid

Thursday, January 27, 2022

Stronger On My Own

You weren't there

When I was broken

But I glued the pieces

Back together

It's not fair

But it was worth it

To see it never really mattered

Cause I was stronger

On my own

Made it through

When I thought

I lost it all

Perseverance

My only friend

Ghosted everyone

To see I was the only one

I survived the hell

Inside this head

Survived the demons

That made me dread

The little things

That gave me life

It was well worth

The fight

I told the lie

That I was alright

No one could save me

Cause I didn't know how

I thought you'd always be there

But you left in the cold

At the first sign of doubt

But it's alright

I turned out fine

Stronger on my own

Cause I taught myself

To never stand down

Wednesday, November 3, 2021

The Same Sad Song

Tell me I'm okay

While I write the same thing

Tell me I'll be just fine

Even when it feels

Like I'm burning alive

It's been a long road

To get where I am at

But sometimes it seems

Like I've made it nowhere

Still searching

For the high ground

As I meltdown

There's just certain times

I wish I could skip

Are we still on the same page

Little nightmare?

Are we still singing

The same tune

To this lullaby?

Are we gonna say goodnight

Or fall apart?

While we still fight this war

We keep losing our peace

And we say

Come tomorrow

I'll pack these bags

And quit this shit

There's no faking it

Tomorrow never comes

And we're still here

Singing the same sad song

Saturday, October 23, 2021

Burning in the night (Raise A Glass)

Raise a glass

And toast to the night

Here's to the past

And may our futures

Burn as bright

As the bridges

I'm burning tonight

Won't look back

Except to learn

From my past

Won't look back

Only make sure

The fires last

And if you come along

If you're up for the ride

We'll never look back

Keep moving fast

I'm burning bridges

To say goodbye

I'm moving mountains

Just to survive

No longer waiting

I'm searching for hope

Wanting for peace

And when it comes down

I'll know who I am

What happened

To our peace of mind

Chasing dreams

Till the break of dawn

Crashing through time

Never caring

What tomorrow would bring

Cause today was the only thing

That mattered to us

What happened to our energy

That built us so high

Let's start that fire again

Raise a glass

And toast to the night

Here's to the past

And may our futures

Burn as bright

As the bridges

I'm burning tonight

Won't look back

Except to learn

From my past

Won't look back

Only make sure

The fires last

Raise a glass

And pour it out

Like kerosene

Watch it burn

To make something new

I'm burning bridges in the night

I'm burning bridges

To say goodbye

I'm moving mountains

Just to survive

No longer waiting

I'm searching for hope

Wanting for peace

And when it comes down

I'll know who I am

Monday, August 30, 2021

Waiting For Adventure To Call My Name

Let's run away

Take a trip anywhere

It doesn't have to be far

Just get me away from here

At a breaking point

Far from any sense

Of a safe return

Looking for adventure

I'll go anywhere

If we could just

Run away

Facing the reality

That expectation

Is a figment of

My imagination

But my impression

Will never change

A delusional outcome

Is the house I made

I'll dig my grave

And bury it all the same

I wanna jump in a car

Going anywhere

Stare down the road

Acting like I don't care

I'm just looking to disappear

Find adventure

And hope it's pure

I wanna jump in car

And run away from here

Show me what this life could be

Teach me the ways of happiness

It's always felt like a dream

A beautiful disaster

Barley keeping us alive

Just staying in one place

Feels like a sin against

Everything we're meant to be

And if it breaks down

I'll keep my feet

On the ground

Slowly spinning

Till I find my way back home

Wednesday, August 25, 2021

Fact Or Fiction (Take The Hint)

Sex sells

But nothing profits

Like a war

Drugs keep

People happy at bay

While they hide

Their shade

Behind all the lies

And hypocrisy

Burning everyone alive

Take the hint

No one seems to care

About you

Or your livelihood

It's old news

But you're still shook

At the idea

That your overlords

Deceived your ignorance

Sold you out

For a profit

From your blissfulness

Fact or fiction

You'll never stop

Falling for it

Broken hearted

Sending thoughts

And prayers

It doesn't matter

Your actions

Prove it evermore

It's all about the money

Cause nothing speaks louder

Than how it benefits "me"

We're going insane

Buying the bullshit

That we're fed

For crying out loud

It's such a pain

Breaking down

The lies to everyone around

Too blind to see

Too ignorant to care

Maybe we're all doomed

Maybe we were

Never meant to be

Never worth it

But well deserved

Misery loves company

But we're all just

Swimming in grief

The cesspool

We created

Claiming to clean

All of humanity

While we continue

Losing it all

Tell me

How are we still breathing

How are we still moving

How are we still alive

With the toxic ways

We still breed

Misery loves company

And corporate greed

We've lost everything

That it means

To be human

Nothing left

Will be the death of us

Saturday, August 7, 2021

At War

I'm at war in this place

I can't escape

I can barely breathe, think, or even scream

And you think you've won

But I've barely begun

This is where I become....

The monster

The beast inside this living hell

The nightmare

Out of this mind

Where all the demons come to play

I'll make it out

Screaming louder and louder

I'll make it out

I'll make it out!

Everybody watching now

All eyes on me these days

Nothing short of misery

A panic attack

To keep me up

Everyone watching me

Making bets on how far I'll go

While I'm still clawing out

Of this grave I made

And you think you've won

But I've barely begun

This is where I become...

I'll stand there

I'll fight you

I'll break everything

You have left

I'll show you

That I don't need you

Just to bring

All my sins to light

And you think you've won

But I've barely begun

This is where I become...

Break me!

I'm not feeling okay

Shake me!

It's like I'm stuck in misery

Can't breathe!

I just need some space and oxygen

Help me!

I can't save myself!

Conversations With God

Broken and lost in misery

Not depressed, not happy

But somewhere in between

Feeling hopeless

Like another lost cause

Fighting for everything

Fighting to be okay

I asked God

Does this ever get better

Does it get easier

Along the way

He said

I'm sorry it only gets worse

It only gets harder from here

But I'll build you up

And make you stronger

Than you ever thought possible

I'll make sure

You'll make out

And be just fine

Tell me I'm okay

Tell me this is worth it

Every fucking mistake

Every second spent in misery

Feels like I'm dying slowly

Losing my breath

My motivation for anything

It was never meant to be easy

Never thought I could hurt so much

You tell me to hang on

But are You even there

So much pain

Where blissful peace should exist

Tell me God

When will this numbness disappear

Where Are You?

I dont hear your voice anymore

Tell me where'd you go

You left me alone in the dark

Wondering hopelessly

Waiting for something more

Can you see me

Are you even listening

Did you leave me

Cause I can't feel you anywhere

Losing touch with reality

They're speaking to me

It doesn't seem right

Alone in the dark

And it's haunting

Alone in the night

It's never ending

Alone in this head

It won't shut up

Just looking for a way out

Searching for solutions

To all of these questions

The ghosts come out to play

Searching for the lost

Seeking out the dammed

Waiting for war

Waiting for an ending

To come to sight

Are you listening

To the slient screams

To the bated breaths

Of the jaded hearts

Can you see me

Cause I can't hear you

Did you leave

Cause I can't feel you

Are you listening

See The World (Come Alive)

I wanna see the world

Runaway from this bullshit

I wanna see the world

Living under the night sky

I wanna see the world

Like I've never seen it before

Give me adventure

Some peace of mind

Fuck this reality

It's no friend of mine

I wanna runaway

See the world come alive

The city lights scream

As we fly high tonight

Don't look back

No! Don't look down

I know this won't last

Feeling of bliss

Nothing but ignorance

Better than emptiness

I never wanna wake up

Blank skies

And fake memories

These lies

Pouring over me

We fight hard

But no love found

We're falling now

Wishing I could live here forever

Blissful peace

Full of ignorance

Nothing but a dream

Of paradise

It doesn't exist

10 Years

Lost here in the moment

Never looking back

Everything seems frozen

Still so much has passed

It seems just like yesterday

Another cliché

But I'm still looking for answers

To every question left

In this empty space

I thought this feeling

Would disapate

So much time

Between you and I

Stories left to never hear

Another word

Won't be said

With that cigarette

Melting in your hand

That empty look

Lost deep in thought

Wondering where you went

Left this emptiness

That a healing hand

Could never touch

10 years here and gone

10 years in the making

10 years seems like nothing

When everything is breaking

10 years here and gone

Wednesday, August 4, 2021

Forget Me (Save Me Someday)

Forget me

Like everyone has

Watch me dissappear

Into the middle of nowhere

Let it fade away

Into the ashes

As the whole world

Moves away

On to better things

The memories were great

But they feel so fake

I dont need your

Sympathy

It's not worth

The time I seek

Oh woe is me

In this reality

Melancholy

And jaded

Bittersweet

Melody

Sing me to sleep

I need to believe

That this is just a dream

A nightmare

Making my head spin

Send me off

To distant lands

Just sing me to sleep

Make me feel okay

Make me feel like

I'm not just a fucking mistake

Cause I try everyday

To be all that I can

But this fake happiness

Takes a toll on all of me

Make this go away

Make me feel okay

Save me someday