Another Day (I Won't Apologize)

Another day
Another fuck up
Another mistake
I won't apologize for
It was never meant
To be this way
But something told me
It wasn't meant to be, today

I couldn't breathe
Suffocating through misery
Tried turning it off
But going numb
Was never the option

Overthinking
Every step that I make
Losing faith
It doesn't make sense
Feeling like
I'm just screaming at walls
No one's listening
Forsaken
This doesn't seem okay

So tell me whats on your mind
Tell me how I screwed up everything
Let me know I'm not worth the time
I'll tell you I'm still fighting for myself
I'm still fighting
To make it out alive

Another day
Another fuck up
Another mistake
I won't apologize for
I couldn't breathe
Suffocating through misery
Holding my breath
Wishing it would go away
I won't apologize
Not to you
Or anyone else
I won't apologize
For not being okay

©2020 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal

Break Me! (Make It Out)

(V1)

I'm at war in this place

I can't escape

I can barely breathe, think, or even scream

And you think you've won

But I've barely begun

This is where I become....

(C)

The monster 

The beast inside this living hell

The nightmare

Out of this mind

Where all the demons come to play

I'll make it out

Screaming louder and louder

I'll make it out

I'll make it out!

(V2)

Everybody watching now

All eyes on me these days

Nothing short of misery

A panic attack

To keep me up

Everyone watching me

Making bets on how far I'll go

While I'm still clawing out

Of this grave I made

And you think you've won

But I've barely begun

This is where I become...

(V3)

I'll stand there

I'll fight you

I'll break everything

You have left

I'll show you

That I don't need you

Just to bring 

All my sins to light

And you think you've won

But I've barely begun

This is where I become...

(B)

Break me!

I'm not feeling okay

Shake me!

It's like I'm stuck in misery

Can't breathe!

I just need some space and oxygen

Help me!

I can't save myself!

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Home Again (Make Me Feel Peace)

 Make me feel peace

And tell me I'm fine

Make this all go away

So I can find home again

Been awhile since I've called out

Reaching for serenity 

So much lost

For so much dread

These demons are all killing me

Make me feel peace

And tell me I'm fine

Make this all go away

Make me feel peace

And tell me I'm alive

So I can find home again

Another night 

Another monster

Another day

Another demon

To haunt these fucking dreams

Make me feel peace

And tell me I'm fine

Make this all go away

Make me feel peace

And tell me I'm alive

So I can find home again

These days feel more like a nightmare

More like a death sentence 

On the fast pass to Armageddon 

Trying to stay afloat

To stay on top of these rapids 

But these monters keep

Dragging me under

Suffocating waiting for the end

©2020 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal

Break Me Down

(C)
Don't break me down
Don't make me feel again
This shits unreal
Its fucking with my head again
These voices cry
These monsters scream
Its killing me
Don't know what to say
Don't know how to act
Just don't break me down

(V1)
These hours are
Passing by
These days
Feel like hell
Every moment
Brings another fail

Can't tell whats real
Or what to believe
They're fucking us up
With their own prerogative

(V2)
But you know
The days are burning
So it seems
Like the world is going insane
Don't know what to do
They say throw it away
And hope for the best

But this faith is dying
Bleeding out
On the sidelines

(B)
We've created a place
Between truth and overrated
We're living behind glass walls
Hoping they never shatter
Throwing stones by day
Screaming every night
Days of false hope and fake news
Ruling over us
I'm over it

©2020 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal

Peace in the Panic

(V1)
I can't say
I'm doing okay
But I'm still kicking
I can't say
I know where I'm going
But I'll find peace
In the panic

(B)
I don't owe anyone
An explanation
I wouldn't know
What to say
I don't owe anyone
A second of my time
I wouldn't wanna waste it

(C)
Cause I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to walk
I'm learning to
Not give in so easily
I'll find my peace in the panic
As I learn to be free
I'll learn to be still

(V2)
I've spent years
In self doubt and pitty
Telling myself
I'm worth less than truth
I've lost so much time
Believing the lies
All around me
Just another devil
In my ear

©2020 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal

We're Fine (Fake A Smile)

(V1)

Always stuck in the past

Lost in the dark

Waiting for something new

Instead of taking it by the arm

What a shame

Losing a war to misery

Instead of finding peace

In a hopeless place

We’re lost

It’s killing us

(C)

But we say we’re fine

In another mask

Fake a smile

To say

We’re the best actors around

Never going down

(V2)

We look so good form the outside

Torn apart on the inside

Faking everything

We say and do

Falling apart at the seams

Never thinking

Never comprehending

What we could be

(END)

It is just me

Or is this insane

Losing our minds

Over the little things

Cause we’re so jaded

So overrated

All the same

All the fucking same

But we say we’re fine

In another mask

Fake a smile

To say

We’re the best fucking actors around

Never going down

We’re never going down

Faking this smile

Cause we say we’re fine

©2020 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal

Fresh Start

(V1)

I’m taking everything

I’ve ever written

This story I’ve been

Working on for so long

These paper walls

I’ve built up

For a feeling of protection

Just to watch them

All burn to the ground

I need a fresh start

(C)

Give me something

To fight for

Give me something

To live for

Take away this state of mind

This state of peace

This complacent sense

I’ve been stuck in

For far too long

It’s time for something new

(V2)

I hate what I’ve become

The actor hiding away

Waiting for another day

To pass away

Just another set back

I won’t let it tell me

Who I am, anymore

(B)

I’m tired of the same shit

Different day, different day

Stuck in my own head

Wasting away

In this contentment

I’ve created

(END)

Set ablaze everything

We’ve ever known

Watch it burn to the ground

As it all disappears

We can tear it apart

Rebuild from the start

Looking for something fresh

It’s time to start again

©2020 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal

A Brighter Place

I can't believe it’s been a year
Time has just flown by
Missing all of the cheer
Its turned to a darker place
I still don't believe it's real
But there's nothing to prove me wrong

So goodbye
They say is a brighter place
Full of love
And goodbye hate
It's a fate
That feels more like a nightmare
When reality
Took another star
To burn bright in the sky
So goodbye
I hope they're right
It’s a brighter place
Where you are

Time goes by
And we move on
Act like we forgot
The pain
Fake a smile
Before the tear
Falls on this cheek
It doesn't feel real
But there's nothing left
To prove me wrong

The stars shine brighter
At night
The sky burns
Without an angry sight
Still feels like a nightmare
But I hope they're right
It's a brighter place
Where you are

©2018 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal 

Nothing Now

(V1)
I can't seem to think
Of a time you were around
I can't seem to step back
And take a breath
It's been an age
Since we last spoke
There were no hard feelings
But you never seemed to care

(C)
I can't help
But to feel nothing now
That your gone
We moved on
There was nothing left
You burned that bridge
And I let it go
I can't help
But to feel nothing now

(V2)
There was a time
I let so much
Affect me
Like I was going insane
To protect something
That was never real
A fairytale we told
To keep these nightmares away
But the monster always wins

(B)
So goodbye
And good riddance
This was never about you
But you'll figure it out
Think that I still care
With the apathy shown
But I know
I'm gonna see you again
I'll see you in hell

©2018 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal 

Picture This

(Intro)
I can’t believe
The things we’ve seen
The places we’ve been
The stories told
The nightmares shared
Everything that we hold
It’s been a journey
Since we’ve last spoke

(V1)
These pictures
All tell a story
About a wide-eyed kid
And his hopeless dreams
The faiytales
He told himself
Before he grew up

(C)
I wanna runaway
And go chasing the stars
We could write a story
About our adventures
And wars
Living in these dreams
To be something more
I want to be so much more
Than the bullshit we've learned

(V2)
Can you tell me what happened
To the wide eyed kid
And those hopeless dreams
We were living
In the castle
We built from the ground up
Young and Reckless
Like we didn’t care at all

(B)
All this time
We've been picking up
These broken pieces
The lies we've all told
Trying to make peace
With the demons we create
But I want to be more
Then the lies we’ve sold

©2018 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal 

Someday (On My Way Out)

(V1)
Sometimes I wonder
If I'm going anywhere
Or if I'm running in circles
Sometimes I wonder
If any of this will ever change
Has anything been worth it

(C)
I think it's time to say goodnight
Before I lose my mind
I think it's time to leave
Before I say something
I think it's time to say goodnight, goodbye
I'm on my way out of here

(V2)
Always stuck in this head
Back and forth with these demons
Not a fucking thing they won't say
I'm gonna beat them, someday

I never said it was worth it
But you make it feel worthless

(V3)
Bittersweet memories
Make me
Want to forget
This existence
With you
With them
With everyone around
Set to flames
These story books
And paper walls
To move on
Far away from this place

It's time to say goodbye
And move on
To get away from everything
Dragging me down

(B)
What did you expect
When I said
I'm not ever coming back
What did you think
When I said
 I was walking away
There comes a time to say goodbye
No regrets, no apologies
I'm not looking back
As I escape this hell
I'm on my way out

©2018 All Rights Reserved Ryne Neal