Break Me Down

(C)
Don't break me down
Don't make me feel again
This shits unreal
Its fucking with my head again
These voices cry
These monsters scream
Its killing me
Don't know what to say
Don't know how to act
Just don't break me down

(V1)
These hours are
Passing by
These days
Feel like hell
Every moment
Brings another fail

Can't tell whats real
Or what to believe
They're fucking us up
With their own prerogative

(V2)
But you know
The days are burning
So it seems
Like the world is going insane
Don't know what to do
They say throw it away
And hope for the best

But this faith is dying
Bleeding out
On the sidelines

(B)
We've created a place
Between truth and overrated
We're living behind glass walls
Hoping they never shatter
Throwing stones by day
Screaming every night
Days of false hope and fake news
Ruling over us
I'm over it

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Peace in the Panic

(V1)
I can't say
I'm doing okay
But I'm still kicking
I can't say
I know where I'm going
But I'll find peace
In the panic

(B)
I don't owe anyone
An explanation
I wouldn't know
What to say
I don't owe anyone
A second of my time
I wouldn't wanna waste it

(C)
Cause I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to walk
I'm learning to
Not give in so easily
I'll find my peace in the panic
As I learn to be free
I'll learn to be still

(V2)
I've spent years
In self doubt and pitty
Telling myself
I'm worth less than truth
I've lost so much time
Believing the lies
All around me
Just another devil
In my ear

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We're Fine (Fake A Smile)

(V1)

Always stuck in the past

Lost in the dark

Waiting for something new

Instead of taking it by the arm

What a shame

Losing a war to misery

Instead of finding peace

In a hopeless place

We’re lost

It’s killing us

(C)

But we say we’re fine

In another mask

Fake a smile

To say

We’re the best actors around

Never going down

(V2)

We look so good form the outside

Torn apart on the inside

Faking everything

We say and do

Falling apart at the seams

Never thinking

Never comprehending

What we could be

(END)

It is just me

Or is this insane

Losing our minds

Over the little things

Cause we’re so jaded

So overrated

All the same

All the fucking same

But we say we’re fine

In another mask

Fake a smile

To say

We’re the best fucking actors around

Never going down

We’re never going down

Faking this smile

Cause we say we’re fine

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Fresh Start

(V1)

I’m taking everything

I’ve ever written

This story I’ve been

Working on for so long

These paper walls

I’ve built up

For a feeling of protection

Just to watch them

All burn to the ground

I need a fresh start

(C)

Give me something

To fight for

Give me something

To live for

Take away this state of mind

This state of peace

This complacent sense

I’ve been stuck in

For far too long

It’s time for something new

(V2)

I hate what I’ve become

The actor hiding away

Waiting for another day

To pass away

Just another set back

I won’t let it tell me

Who I am, anymore

(B)

I’m tired of the same shit

Different day, different day

Stuck in my own head

Wasting away

In this contentment

I’ve created

(END)

Set ablaze everything

We’ve ever known

Watch it burn to the ground

As it all disappears

We can tear it apart

Rebuild from the start

Looking for something fresh

It’s time to start again

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A Brighter Place

I can't believe it’s been a year
Time has just flown by
Missing all of the cheer
Its turned to a darker place
I still don't believe it's real
But there's nothing to prove me wrong

So goodbye
They say is a brighter place
Full of love
And goodbye hate
It's a fate
That feels more like a nightmare
When reality
Took another star
To burn bright in the sky
So goodbye
I hope they're right
It’s a brighter place
Where you are

Time goes by
And we move on
Act like we forgot
The pain
Fake a smile
Before the tear
Falls on this cheek
It doesn't feel real
But there's nothing left
To prove me wrong

The stars shine brighter
At night
The sky burns
Without an angry sight
Still feels like a nightmare
But I hope they're right
It's a brighter place
Where you are

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Nothing Now

(V1)
I can't seem to think
Of a time you were around
I can't seem to step back
And take a breath
It's been an age
Since we last spoke
There were no hard feelings
But you never seemed to care

(C)
I can't help
But to feel nothing now
That your gone
We moved on
There was nothing left
You burned that bridge
And I let it go
I can't help
But to feel nothing now

(V2)
There was a time
I let so much
Affect me
Like I was going insane
To protect something
That was never real
A fairytale we told
To keep these nightmares away
But the monster always wins

(B)
So goodbye
And good riddance
This was never about you
But you'll figure it out
Think that I still care
With the apathy shown
But I know
I'm gonna see you again
I'll see you in hell

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Picture This

(Intro)
I can’t believe
The things we’ve seen
The places we’ve been
The stories told
The nightmares shared
Everything that we hold
It’s been a journey
Since we’ve last spoke

(V1)
These pictures
All tell a story
About a wide-eyed kid
And his hopeless dreams
The faiytales
He told himself
Before he grew up

(C)
I wanna runaway
And go chasing the stars
We could write a story
About our adventures
And wars
Living in these dreams
To be something more
I want to be so much more
Than the bullshit we've learned

(V2)
Can you tell me what happened
To the wide eyed kid
And those hopeless dreams
We were living
In the castle
We built from the ground up
Young and Reckless
Like we didn’t care at all

(B)
All this time
We've been picking up
These broken pieces
The lies we've all told
Trying to make peace
With the demons we create
But I want to be more
Then the lies we’ve sold

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Someday (On My Way Out)

(V1)
Sometimes I wonder
If I'm going anywhere
Or if I'm running in circles
Sometimes I wonder
If any of this will ever change
Has anything been worth it

(C)
I think it's time to say goodnight
Before I lose my mind
I think it's time to leave
Before I say something
I think it's time to say goodnight, goodbye
I'm on my way out of here

(V2)
Always stuck in this head
Back and forth with these demons
Not a fucking thing they won't say
I'm gonna beat them, someday

I never said it was worth it
But you make it feel worthless

(V3)
Bittersweet memories
Make me
Want to forget
This existence
With you
With them
With everyone around
Set to flames
These story books
And paper walls
To move on
Far away from this place

It's time to say goodbye
And move on
To get away from everything
Dragging me down

(B)
What did you expect
When I said
I'm not ever coming back
What did you think
When I said
 I was walking away
There comes a time to say goodbye
No regrets, no apologies
I'm not looking back
As I escape this hell
I'm on my way out

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Just Like You

(Chorus)
Can you tell me what it's like
To be so fucking perfect
Can you tell me what it's like
To be on top of the world
Just tell me how it feels
Tell me what's it like
Cause it looks so fucking stupid
To be just like you
Don't wanna be you

(V1)
You're running your mouth
Like it's a quota to make
You're showing your face
And the coward underneath
It's amazing how well
You think you hide

(V2)
I've never seen someone so fake
I've never seen someone like you
I've never met anyone
That makes me feel so jaded
I'm faded

(B)
Don't wanna be an act
Don't wanna be a fraud
Don't wanna be a con-artist like you

I don't wanna be fool
I don't wanna be a fake
I don't wanna be just like you
I'll never be just like you

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Reminiscing (Memories)

I'm listening to music
I haven't touched in years
It gives me peace
I'm writing like I used to write
So long ago, in high school
It gives me a joy
I haven't felt in years
But we relive the past
To find ourselves
In the mess we created
To burn it up
So we can start living again

So give me a memory
To take in
So many left in the past
I thought I forgot them all
But here I am reminiscing
About the days
When ran this town
Ran into the ground

We thought we were fucked up
But it was all in our heads
A lie we told ourselves
To give up
But we fought like hell
To stand back up
And do it all over again

Now the days go on without you
But you don't suffer anymore
I guess that's what we say
To feel better about oursleves
And the loss that can never come back
But truth be told
The wound will never close
We'll never heal
We'll just learn how to live all over again
And keep the memory close

Thank you for everything you gave to me. These memories will live on forever. Thank you for everything you gave to others. Those memories will live on forever. Thank you for genuienly caring about others and showing intrest eventhough you had your own battles and wars like everyone else. Life is taken for granted and never truly appreciated for what it is. You are proof that life doesn't last forever, but you truly lived it to the fullest. I wish I wasn't writing this, at least not this early in life. We're still kids, no matter what they say our age is. You always wore a smile and bore a laugh that will not soon be forgoten. Taken too soon in life, but now you get to live freely in the clouds with everyone you ever lost. Be sure to tell my loveds ones hello, and tell everyone about the story you wrote and the memories you left behind. Thank you for everything. But, most importantly, Thank you for being my friend. Rest in paradise, Mel.

    

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Don't Quit the Fairytale

(V1)
Remember what it was like
To be happy
Living a lie
Just trying to get by
Young and innocent
That's what they said
In too big of a hurry
To get out of this place
I wanna move on to better things

(C)
I don't know
How to say goodbye
Good luck, we're moving on
It doesn't matter anyway
In this reality
We're just living a fairytale
We're only dead
When we quit living

(V2)
What the fuck I'm doing
I'm fighting so hard
To disappear
Get out of here
Like I'm ready to leave
Every memory behind
To let a piece of me die
It's the same as giving up

(V3)
You gave me my peace
Another smile
Up in flames
Showed me how to fake happy
Hide everything
Under a busted shell of life
It's how we got by

(B)
This isn't where we drop out
We're only dead
When we quit living
This isn't where we surrender
We're only dead
When we quit living
This isn't the end of our fairytale

(V1)-(C)-(V2)-(C)-(V3)-(B)-(C)

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